Tuesday, 2 December 2014

縱然是世界遼闊

老地方相见
每每都能毫不费劲的勾起心中一股莫名的汹涌


-縱然是世界遼闊 外面的精采好多-

Thursday, 20 November 2014

Past


by shanna
The Parliament, London '09


you know that saying, that wise people on the internet always says
don't look back, it's not going to do you any good.
well i did just that, basically on a weekly basis. it used be daily so i'd say i'm good now.

i can't help. it's almost like i'm bound to. 
stumbling upon old stuffs, old posts, old something. 
they were very much annoyingly lovable. am i making any sense?

i read this old blog post of mine and i almost cried.
i'm a mess. as always.

Monday, 17 November 2014

Pox

This is such an irony, following a post named 'Positivity'. literally like the next day after the previous post, i was down with chicken pox. what on earth!? and no that's not the worse, couple of other things all decided to pile up and screw my week. let me just kindly walk you through my series of unfortunate events.

it all has to start from Friday night. because i felt that was the best part and slowly everything else just went downhill from there. we watched Interstellar on Friday night and its mind-blowing-ness was as expected if not way beyond. Christopher Nolan, i love you. and as usual, you can't possibly go to sleep after a Nolan movie, even more impossible if the movie ends at 130am and you have a Amos next to you. so we chat about gravity, dimensions, possible flaws of the movie etc and finally went to bed around 4am. it was killing me my body. too frequently i tend to forget i'm no longer 18. woke up mid day the next day and still feeling fine, we went grocery shopping with neighbours and had a blast at BBQ party. and when we were packing the rubbish i suddenly felt a shot of dizziness in my head. and slowly developed to the idea that it might be migraine due to lack of sleep. so i went to sleep woke up the next day, same crappy dizziness. still thought it was migraine and lack of sleep, so i took pill and afternoon nap. woke up at night felt alright, foolishly thought that was it. 

Monday. woke up in a headache still, and found a blister on my waist and plenty of rashes on my chest. i didn't freak out because i thought it was skin allergy from the new bedsheets (we didn't pre-wash them, fresh from the pack and on to the bed, oops). on the way to work, flat tyre. yup. went to work, already late and full of guilt, crazy dizziness hit again after lunch and i can't concentrate. went to the clinic and the doc said 'chicken pox'.....i was like W T F? how on earth did i even get infected? i'm in the middle of an audit and this seriously was the last thing i would want. the next day though was epic, because my bloody period, of all time has decided to be punctual this month. tell me about it. overall it was just a very very unpleasant experience, the itch was surprisingly bearable (thank you yellow pill) but the inconvenience though, so so annoying! being crazy careful washing my hair and my body, brushing teeth, eating liquid food...they seriously grow everywhere!

i seriously don't think any thing else can top this series of crappy events. and i was hopeful enough to think i will have the strength to maybe study and do some research for weddings during this medical leaves. first half of the week i was just down with fever and pills after pills and youtube after youtube. and then i got better and i shamefully came to realisation (again) just how unproductive i am lately. 

sorry about all this ramblings.




Sunday, 9 November 2014

Positivity

i am in no mean to publicise negativity but sometimes you just have to get it out and admit it and start over and hopefully it won't be too late (too hopeful). yes i am super lazy and unproductive and i am ashamed of myself and i deserve failing this paper (ah bless me please don't fail) because i woke up so late  in the morning and laze on bed for about two hours thinking about toffee nut latte and when i finally made myself a cup of coffee, i ate a piece of lemon meringue cake (which was awesome btw) and some chips and i spent the next three hours watching shaytards. i know i should be sorry for not studying my paper but i feel that there is this huge positive energy growing inside me every time i watch their videos, that all will be well. and of course, you have to put effort into it. exam is less than a month away and wedding is definitely less than a year away and with all these planning and audits going on, it's really very very energy consuming and well...let's just say i need a lot of positivity boost. 

and i'm so so thankful for internet. came across this Christmas advertisement by John Lewis, so beautifully made and Tom Odell's voice, i'm so ready for Christmas :)

Tuesday, 14 October 2014

Lydia

i don't like parting. especially and very easily disenchanted by it when one is parting from me.
i'm really really not very fond of it. i'm really upset.
we were very different but somehow we became each other's ranting partner (the best thing) (you could ask for in a job like this!)
to adapt again, would be very challenging. almost too much an effort.
i've stopped wondering if this will ever end. but sometimes, even without questioning it i felt so tired of having to do it over and over again. perhaps i just wish this good feeling about this team would last a little longer than now.

but with all my heart bless her in the new beginning and may this be the answer she has been searching for. to the very good life ahead.

i will miss us dearly.
x


by ER
escape room, ecurve.



Tuesday, 7 October 2014

Alexa Chung



i really can't quite put into words how or why i love her.
but really though you don't need much words as she is the very fine definition of perfection.
everything about her, i just adore. so very much.

Sunday, 28 September 2014

Wedding Planning

Planning a wedding is hard. by planning, i mean actually planning it not just running things through your head. argh how much i wish i could just plan it all in my head and all will turn out just fine. Nope.

so we haven't been really productive. to be honest if you were to benchmark, we probably look like the kind of engaged couple who just don't really want to get married! it is so much work! first of all, you have to worry about date and location of the ceremony and the reception, the theme the amount of guests, pre-wedding shoot and above all, budgets! (yay) again, so much work! i must say surprisingly i haven't enjoyed any of this process yet. i was picturing myself as the kind of girl who would love the process as it will be fun (at some point, i guess i hope) but so far i have just been procrastinating! :(

about time i realise time it's already end of September and we really haven't got much time left to procrastinate....
Brighton, Summer '10
just realise we've got this picture taken years ago!